wimmenz. pt. 2.

theres a fine line between loving them and hating them with me. Sometimes they make absolute sense to the decisions they make. other times they make NO sense at all. I give them advice and they dont take it...im terrible at giving relationship advice btw. DO NOT ask me my opinion on whether you should ask someone out or not cuz i will say yes every single time. no joke. its a good thing i got a big dick tho....cuz it makes up for the bad parts about me nahmean? LOLOLOL

insomnia.

i've had it alot in the last i dont know...5 months almost...mostly cuz im nervous alot. sometimes im afraid i might miss a text or a call or something from beth. i miss her more than anything. i love her so much...some people might say "well you've only seen her in real life once" i respond with i dont care. shes the nicest, cutest, wierdest person you'll ever meet. she doesnt take kindly to new people and thats understandable i suppose. she had a bad past, much like myself. shes been going thru a rough patch without me and im the same. i've been miserable. i think ive been happy 3 times since shes been gone. its almost like im talking like shes dead and gone. shes far from it. shes turning 16 in a week and im so happy...sorta. i just wish she could celebrate it the right way. 6 months and counting bethy. i love ya.

wimmenz.

sometimes they make sense and or leave you make common sense assesments of what they're talking about. other times they say something, and dont explain it. its gets aggrivating. its almost like a tease of some sort. not like sexually but mentally. that's all i gotta say about that.

i want a camera.

like not a hd cam, although that would be fuckin awesome if i had one of those, but i want an old fashioned black and white photograph takin mofuckin camera. just to capture some beautiful shit. that might sound ignorant but i truely mean that. i love photography, but i had a teacher in high school that completely turned me off to the fact of taking pictures. he was fuckin wierd. and he made things really wierd. that is all.

breasts.

men like them. i like them. not cuz i'm a man, but because they look good. not in a appetizing way but in a "damn i like them" kind of way, kno wut i mean?