i dunno

i had the time of my life this past summer, i went to new york city, fell in love, met the most amazing girl ever, and i quit my job. why did i quit my job? cuz it sucks, but the worst part about quitting your job is, you dont have a fucking job afterwards :D. So almost 2 months have past since i quit that job, and im fearing unemployment mostly cuz my dad is forcing me to work with him >.>. so im left with 2 options: 1. go get my old job back and look for a new one while still earning money. 2. stay unemployed and work for my dad until i find a job, which could in fact take months. i cant waste any more time. i need a job now cuz i gotta go to college next year and get the fuck outta this house! so this decision sucks but it needs to be done, i gotta get my old job back. i need to see ray asap i miss her too damn much, i need money, i need to get my life on track and it sucks that i desperately need money to do that. I wish we did live in a perfect world, cuz in that perfect world i could see you whenever i wanted and would be happy all the time. ive been working on this poem kinda thing and it starts off like:

summer ended too soon we both know that
but we had the times of our lives, trekin cross the map.
i fell in love thats a fact.
i needed you in my life and it took 500$ just to achieve that.
now im not the most elegant with words
im not good with grammar or verbs
i slur and stutter alot of the time
but maybe this one time i can just be more aligned.
we aint perfect thats fer sure.
but as long as we got each other, everythings kosher.
a mix of emotions and few long nights
we had our share of relationship fights
thank god we still got each other
i dont think we could live without another
this isnt a proposal dont get me wrong
but i love you a lot, this aint long
enough to prove what i got
on the inside and out and right on this dot.